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Something that you didn't realized,precious.

2010-12-31T11:20:00.000-08:00

Is there a thing called love at first sight?
It's a question that I asked in the deep of night.
Then came you, the love of my life.
In just a few moment, I knew our love would be true.
I knew It was right under the full moonlight.
And I had my answer,
I had found love at first sight.
Caryne was the name,
The name that sparks the best out of me and brought me to fame.
They said,
Two hands to hold, two eyes to see, and two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because you grab it and compile it to be one.
This is mend for you Caryne aka Fishy,
With abundance of love by yours truly.

To trust or not to trust?

2010-09-03T00:24:00.000-07:00

Music: I will always love you-Whitney Houston
Time : 3.28pm

Sadly, I've no idea what I have to do. Having to bear the all those torment and loneliness without you is enough to blow my mind off. Though It's only today but it seems like almost 2 years. I admitted I relied on you too much, because of love. I'm not sure if there's still anymore love on me but seriously this irritating disease is ruining my life each day. Totally speechless and blank, what should I do? Leaving you is easy but forgetting you is too difficult. I may accept the fact that you've left me but what else I can do about it, to get you back or to let you go? After everything that I've done and made for you, are they worthless? Rumors had it that you're flirting around, some said you're seeing someone but who am I to trust, with the fact that I'm lost and despair. It's pointless to keep forcing you back on track with me. I don't know whether is this a test of trust or a fact that you've fall for someone.

P/S: Got the storyline from a touching Taiwan love drama. So decided to blog it.

2010-09-01T03:56:00.000-07:00

If you can't get someone outta your head,
then they're mend to be there,forever.

Emo-ing

2010-08-30T10:33:00.000-07:00

After you stepped out, things seems to be dull and not as fun as It should be like last time. Life without you is like an incomplete puzzle. Well, I don't really ask for much, as long as you're holding to our promises I'll be happy enough. Time may fly fast but a year sounded more exactly like ten years. No matter what, I'll always be by your side whenever you need me at time. I'll be there for you. And our love shall be glorified. Nevertheless, I'm still trying to cope back and slowly patching up the holes to lead my life back. For everything that had took place, happen for a reason.

2010-08-20T03:24:00.001-07:00

After so long, I decided to make my blog alive back again,once more. Well, a lot of ups and downs, some I would say some shitty stuff that turn just into a huge bomb, happening during these long periods of time. After all, I'm glad that everything is getting back on track and the spark is starting to glow. A new chapter of my life I would say. Not every single human alive in this world is perfect,right? I'm sure most you guys will agree. Picture this, If a terrorist is able to hijack a plane, why not a guy can snatch of someone's other girlfriend. Personally, I learned my mistake from the past relationship ( Ikhwan's philosophy =D ) I made my mistake back few years ago and the feeling is unbearable. It's easy to fall in love but It's too difficult to ever leave someone, when the feeling is there for almost coming to two years. Frankly, I myself is unable to bear all these sufferings and torments by myself. Thanks to all my close friends and college mates, they shine my life back with humors, cock jokes, and etc. Subsequently, I'm glad and grateful that both of us are slowly patching up the holes in our journey to reach the aisle of happiness. Much <3 babe!

Mandy

2009-06-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

Baby, I love you! A lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot!! =)

Happy Half Year Anniversary Babe!

2009-06-03T10:38:00.000-07:00

Well babe,I knew u might had a thought that I'm downloading porn materials or dotaing right?.Perhaps,I'm not.I was waiting for you to get to your bed and slowly sat down and get this done for you.It may not be that fancy or perfect as what you expected but I've tried my best to create a piece of my sincerity for you.Anyway,I'm real sorry for what I've done in the previous months and for all the wrongdoings and jealously that I've created to you babe,but in fact every single consequences of it do make the both us bonded even closer and tighter.Words may only expressed part of my love for you but the feelings and moments that we spent were the significant ones.ILY!

Idiot babe. LOL

ILY!

P.S.:You'll always gonna be my idiot-pig-kuai lan baby.I love you more each day. =D Happy Half Year Anniversary again! Cheers!

Holidays..

2009-06-02T09:39:00.000-07:00

Holidays had just started.Kinda bit relaxed and feeling better.Anyway,get rid of this crap and get on the track with what i wana talk about.LOL.Woke up kinda early this morning,washed up and went down to Jelutong to fetch Patrick.Then he told me Alyn wanted to follow and I said okie but with one condition,I can't drop her back(Sorry ya,Pu Chor Ma xD ).Headed to Permata Sports Complex,Deriss reached,then Yeong Shuian,Beh,Chee Hong and we straight went in and get ourself wet,I mean sweat.LOL.Dropped Patrick home and went to babe's house.Got myself cleaned up and had a lil chat with her.Bla Bla Bla and then she massaged my back and did some whatever u call it facial tingy.(Much apologies,I don't know much bout facial product).LOL.And we ate KFC 'cheapest' item,stupid Popcorn Chicken which costs about 6bucks.Should've at McD,more worth it.Btw,I'm lazy to post up my pictures.Gonna post it next few days.

P.S.:Babe,I miss Monday.That was the best part. ILY =P

I'm back!

2009-05-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

I'm back,people.I know its some time that I did'nt update my blog.Was having exams,not on purpose.Felt so right that exam is over after all.LOL.Time to enjoy and party around.Went to shisha on thursday with my two weirdo friends,Thum and Francis.The next day were my business studies paper and MUET,and that morning itself Sim brought beer to school and so,who cares,its only exam after all.Drank and went straight to sit for my papers.Did quite sucks on business paper.Don't care ler.LOL.And today was fun,went to Mandy's house in the afternoon.Had my dinner with her and then went back her house to play around.LOL.

P.S. :Deriss,my blog revived. =D

2009-03-27T05:54:00.001-07:00

At last I'm free,was busy the whole day.From school to houseboi to driver.This is what happen when your house is not filled with a sister or a maid.Likewise what YDNAM said it's good doing it but I felt more to like child slavery.Anyway,I'm used to it.Don't give much fuck bout it anymore.2 more years and I'm off from this so-called happy family house.Alright,here comes the fun part.LOL.Initially,I didn't realise that there were a couple inside this Kenari until I parked my car beside them,and what I saw was totally hillarious.The guy was like busy french kissing with his girlfriend and his jeans unzipped.The girl was like busy doing some erotic massage(understand ler yea xD) inside his boyfriend's jeans.Eventually,the girl saw me looking at them and she's like kinda shocked and I just act as if I didn't saw anything.Consider the both of them unlucky la.LOL.

Tears and Sorrows

2009-03-17T04:19:00.000-07:00

Because you have it,
They want it,
You have happiness,
They have sadness,
You have love,
They have hate,
They want it,
They want it so bad they are willing to hurt you,
The one thing that makes you the happiest ,
They take it away,
Its gone,
Life as you know it has ended and will never come back.

They Say,
Things they don't mean,
They say they love you,
They dont,
They say we are doing what's best for you,
Their not,
They say you will get over it,
Their wrong.

There is always someone,
There is always someone to love,
There is always someone to hate,
There is always someone you care for,
There is always someone you want to kill,
There is always someone that turns your sky blue,
There is always someone that turns your sky black,
There is always someone that makes your life worth living,
There is always someone that makes your life feel like nothing.

I miss You..

2009-03-14T22:08:00.000-07:00

A black hole replaces the heart in my chest,
Because it knows that you're gone.
Numbness surrounding to once again supress,
The image of you,the perfection.
Cause as soon as I think of your face and your voice,
The pain swallows me whole.
Sickening,twisting,please help me forget,
The saddening feelings that you won't console.
I feel like I'm drowning,dying so slowly,
As I hope that one day you'll come back.
That hope is in vain,though isn't it now?
My love,my heart grows black.

Something We Called Love

2009-03-02T02:25:00.000-08:00

I can't forget,
The day you took my breathe away,
And I can't pretend,
Tonight you're gonna stay here,
I see you,
In my dreams again,
Inside my soul,There's something you can find,
Something you can,
A mystery, A poetry,
Something we collide,
And you let my heart thumping,
On the first embrace.

One Week to Exam..

2009-02-24T02:38:00.000-08:00

I know my blog is starting to rot.Ignore me aite,people.Got no time to update it.Busy with school activities and outings.*sigh* One more week to my monthly exam and I didn't even start touching my newly bought books yet.Still have the beauty aroma of it I guess. xD Well,school's spot check was kinda strict this year,don't know why.Mayb due to the plethora of handphones lost I think,nothing much actually in school.As usual,sleep,lepak,and rarely ponteng class.Consider a good achievement for me.=P No cases being filed so far.LOL.Nevertheless,there's still some people that is still not over of what had happened last year.I hope you're reading this,you asked me to stop talking about it and remain our friendship but ask yourself,what you said to others.I don't want to mention it out here,you should understand yourself.

Girl or Friendship?..You choose yourself.

P.S.:I'm still gonna treat you as a best friend of mine but just to let u

know one thing,I NEVER BACKSTABBED YOU.

2009-02-08T09:34:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time that I never update this old blog.LOL.Life was usual,nothing much.Chinese New Year were okie,unlike last year,totally disaster man.Haha.9 more months and there goes STPM.Still not in a mood to study.LOL.And Valentine's Day is like,in a week time.Gonna be my second year celebrating Valentine alone.(Sucks actually celebrating it alone).But still hoping that there's this pretty angel gonna appeared in front on the day itself.I'm thinking too much maybe,ignore me people.Anyway,I'm still waiting for STPM to finish and here I come,KL.Gonna club till like shit at there.LOL.Till then guys.

School Life Again..Fcuk up!

2009-01-03T06:55:00.000-08:00

1 more day to go and yea,back to the prison of education.Daily life gonna be packed again with tuitions and sports practises.Bored.And worse still,STPM.Stupid government exam that made our life tougher. =.=
Anyway,still in a mood to party around and hang out just like the holidays but not that often.Gotta reduce the duration of entertainment and clubbing.Lol.Another one long year for me to load up my education and sit for the freakin exam and there goes my teenage life.Can't wait for my Form 6 life to end and go on with my dream and someone also.Lol.

Credits to Shi Han and Evon.. =P

2009-01-01T08:34:00.000-08:00

The Fantastic Four(From the first one the right to the fourth)

Chill aite,I knew u girls gonna kill me with these pictures.But no offense,we shall always reminisce back the past.LOL.Took me quite some time to find and get all these pictures,so,appreciate it ya.

P/S:I don't plan to create this post but since i've got all these pictures

accumulated,why don't I make some special thing for you two.Like

they always said,one stone kills birds right? =D

Fucking bitch,get a life man!

2008-12-17T09:46:00.000-08:00

It really pissed me off when I first heard that a close friend of mine was being blamed just because of jealously.I did admit that this thing really concerns me a lot because an innocent victim was being victimized and blamed for out of no reason.Just because of one word,Jealously,it kills and disrupted everything.And it's so childish that they use this kinda way to get people away from their loved ones.Worse part was the person was being a middleperson between two party and spreading rumors,which were totally untrue on both side while she plays the protagonist character.Frankly,that specific person seriously can't stop bitching around,thinking and claiming that she's the best.I'll suggest you what,take a mirror,mirror yourself,and the mirror will break immediately.Accept the fact that you used to be in a forbidden relationship and not all people agree with that,though we are all equal.I'm not being bias or what but this is really getting out of control and clarification is vital.Just hope that the person will stop having that bad perception on my friend and turn over a new leaf.Or I got 4 words for you

Get a life,BITCH!

New Chapter of Life

2008-12-15T08:55:00.000-08:00

Shits happen again this time,but it's been settled.So,no worries.Right!I'm back now,to update this old blog.Lol.Camp was exahilirating fun,new friends,memories,love entanglements,conflicts..you name it,everything do happens during camp.Luckilly,it turns out well and doesn't jeopardize the camp.Traplex 2008 was officially over,which means I'm retiring soon from my scouting life.Enjoyed and hated doing it also at the same time,but not to be forgotten,PCGHS Campfire next year,my last year attending campfire and gathering.Haha!.Scouting really do provide and serve me with great memories of the past,doesn't regret joining it.Lol.Conflicts do happen during this whole duration of camp,misunderstandings,jealously,feeling of hatred,so called 'secret-gossip-societies' being established and there goes the birth of rumors,which hit me also.But I'm cool with that,no hard feelings. =D Traplex o8' rawkz guys! Gonna miss y'all guides and scouts out there,especially those that 'modified' my name and post during the first day of camp. xD

Special credits to:

XinLi(Buy eggs for the 'gina' to play) =D

ShiHan aka Dj sHi

Mandy(Understood ler hur what i helped you) =P

Evon(partner-in-crime)

Theresa(your morning breakfast,we still owe you) xD

SueYin(Ms.6th Sense) o.O

TzeLun(gimme very good 'kangtao' on the 1st day of camp) =.=

Zoe aka Ms.Marshmallow

Chammaine aka Ms.Mamarazzi =)

LiMei(I want your hair colour) =>

Mei Wan(you can open a soft drink stalls de) =D

"Getting to know you and being fallen for you in this camp were the two most precious and prestigious treasure I've ever found in my life.You left me in agonizing pain and cures me with your healing touch."

2008-11-21T17:25:00.000-08:00

" He is not a lover who does not love forever. "

Hectic Schedule..Killing me man

2008-11-18T11:03:00.000-08:00

Ever since finals end,camp stuff is stacking up each day.No time to hang out or go to Gurney new wing also.So do Deriss,hers was way worse then me.Pity her she need to be a 12 hours driver for her mom.Pityful.And I can see she's suffering from tiredness physically and mentally,which drives me crazy too.Anyway,we still managed to keep in touch,though we've not been seeing each other for like coming to 5 days.Haha.Holidays doesnt look like holiday for the both of us.To be frank,I wish school starts earlier,rather than at home being asked to do this and that,more to like an unpaid maid.Well Deriss,I can't sleep that early so,managed to pen out a poem for you.Enjoy!

To my Love I'll say,
Forever we'll stay,
In this place of Love,
We'll be together like doves.

For your Love I'll do,
Anything just for you,
I'll do my best,
And beat all the rest,
I'd climb mountains for you,
Cross oceans for you,
I'd run a thousand miles,
Just to see your smile.

Whenever you cry,
I'll do my best n try,
To put a smile on your face,
Forever and for always.

I don't wanna see you sad,
Coz' I'll feel really bad,
It's you my heart longs,
With you is where i belong,
And thats where I'll stay,
Till the end of my days,
In your heart forever,
As long as you remember.

P/S:Just a simple poem,hope you like it baby.Off to bed.Nitez.Btw,thanks for the graphic below.
xD

Love Letter

2008-11-14T17:23:00.000-08:00

you are my drug

2008-11-10T06:10:00.000-08:00

Love is measured by suffering... that's all I can say.
Money isn't everything but sometimes it buy happiness too.
I've always wanted to make a memorable birthday for you-so i did it i guess. LOL.
handicraft stars? hearts? hahahha.not my type.sorry.mine simple just open the pen cover
and scribble whatever that come actually from the bottom of your heart.
that brings more meaning to your partner indeed.hahaha.
and they do treasure it better rite???

baby, i don't need u to throw a sum of money for my bday.
is just a day that reminds me that i'm getting older.
the thought that counts will do.
i treasure u to the fullest.
you've been there for me every single time.
those presence really cost priceless for me.
times when im stuck in the middle of the road
and u came and be there for me is enough.
eventhough u can't even do anything.
those are the gifts i really wanted.
apparently, you gave me all.
so there's nothing more I can ask from my dearest baby.

i love you for who you are and im still holding on....

18th Birthday..

2008-11-06T06:52:00.000-08:00

Yea,I'm 18 at last..another age added into my life..haha..And yea,below was part of the present my Deriss gave to me..Thousands of thanks to her,for spending her time designing these..Not to be forgotten,the RM 220 Esprit shirt she gave me..Costs you a big amount right,baby?..=D and near broke right?..haha..appreciate it alot baby,but don't worry..Your birthday gonna be a big bash..You deserve that..My promise aight..Gtg now..

P/S:-I'll post the pics some other day.

Thanks again baby..You made my Birthday a memorable one and you DRUGGED me too..
Love ya..

happy birthday baby...!!!

2008-11-05T06:03:00.000-08:00

A So-called special day for me =)

2008-10-11T08:18:00.000-07:00

Alright,i'm back again.Lazy to update my blog recently,don't know why.Lol.Went to fetch deriss from her house today.Then headed to my account teacher's house at bukit gelugor to attend her Hari Raya open house.(No idea why raya so long wan).Deriss then asked me to drop her at Tesco to get her Streamyx ISP(don't know what the heck was that).End up apa pun tarak,the person-in-charge told her to call the customer service centre instead.And the so-called special day starts here,i went to deriss's church today,namely Tabernacle of Praise or TOP(Not that TOP detergent k).LOL.Well,its kinda nervous for me because i use to be an ignostic person and its kinda suprise to me to go to her church.I never believe in religions to be honest,when i'm a Roman Catholic in the first place but the worship and sermons tingy at her church really gave me an impression,a kinda feeling where i felt very peaceful,as in like you're really in heaven for about like 5-7 seconds.To be frank,i used to believe in Scientology and hold on to the principle that God doesn't exist unless he's proven scientifically.But maybe i might be wrong,i'm not sure whether it was my instinct or it's true that God really appeared on me for the short term of time.But bottomline was,i really enjoyed the worship and sermon tingy and i'm really looking forward to attend it again.And not to be forgotten,i started to like Uncle Vive in the first place.He was like,you know,my enemy when she keeps on shooting and brainwashing deriss to end our relationship.What suprise me was his story on how he accepted God in his life.It's like more or less the same as my situation.He's really a fun guy afterall,spicing up his talks with various jokes and actions.LOL.Anyway,thanks to ya again my baby deriss,for taking me to your church.It's a good sign for the both of us,especially you.But i'm not gonna convert yet till when the time comes,till God really really appeared right in front of my eyes.gtg nw.gonna update my blog in few days time.Amen.

Thanks My Dear!!!

2008-08-11T05:07:00.000-07:00

Thanks my dear! =)

Alright..Im back at last from my hectic schedule..Firstly,i'm sorry,for not updating this blog for quite some time..Was busy with school proms,my deriss,tuitions..Arghhh!!..Can go crazy man..

LOL..Next,i would like to thank my baby deriss for this mesmerizing poem..You're a good poet my dear i shoud say..You touched me..

Date : 8 August 08'
Venue : BedroomMusic

Background : One step at a time-J.Sparks

Mood : In Love

.hendry.

As I sit and think of you,

And how much you mean to me,

And if I had never known you,

How empty my life would be.
You are to me a precious gift,

Of one that is true and rare,

And I vow to you to treasure this gift,

With love, warmth and care.
I can feel your smile, your warmth and your touch,

As I long for that day to come,

Through the route may be tough,

We still unite as one.
I want you to hold me in your arms,

Keep me safe from all harms,

I want you to look deep into my eyes,

Please don't tell me any lies,
I'll stay with you any day,

I'll be with you anyway,

If there is a day we should part,

Promise to keep me in your heart,
I love you all the time,

I am yours and you are mine.
This is the beginning,

Only true love I send,

This is the middle,
There is no end.

.deriss.

P/s: I Love You.

P.S.:i LOVE you too..

NS Outing =)

2008-06-22T01:25:00.001-07:00

Weynn and Arina
Elva,Umah,Xian,Arina,Erica
Penghulu,Xian,Umah,Wan Tan,Arina,Sin Ling,and Arina
Me with the 'rubber' =)

Just came back not long from my overnite at Sri Sayang Apartment yesterday,with my NS friends..At first,i was thinking i'm not able to make it to the overnite stay but,Arina save my ass..LOL!..I was having a transport problem as my mum don't allow me to drive up to Batu Ferringhi at night..You know ler right,the road there is damn 'edgin'..Haha!..So,i called Arina and she agreed to fetch me there(Thanks ya,Gila!..LOL!..Cheers to you!)..We reached there about 7 something and walk to the beach in front of Rasa Sayang Resort..Saw Killer,Wei Xian,Sin Ling,Erica,Ash(my Penghulu),Phillimon,and Wan Tan(Killer's friend,which use to be my neighbourhood friend)..They were busy setting up the fire,Arina went to find her bf,Justin and i wander around with my handphone..Weynn,Alvin,Sabrina,Juian,and Umah appeared not long after that,followed by Elva and York Sin..Greeted them and started chattin while waiting for the fire to be set up..LOL!..And then,the party begins..All of us started eating with our hungry expression,as if like we've starved for days..Pity Xian had to be the chef most of the time because we rated the chicken he barbecued was the best among ourselves..Killer's sister and her bf came on,gave us a carton of Marlboro Light cigarretes and a bottle of Hennesy(my 2nd favourite after Chivas)..Killer and Sin Ling went walking along the beach,with holding hands,i think..LOL!..Not long after that,Phil brought out 'rubbers' for us and Ash went to fill it with the orange juice..Everyone was laughing like mad except for Juian..She was like wth is that?Balloon?..LOL!..The party then ended up about 1am after clearing up and we went straight to our room,and chor-tai-ti all till 5am..

2008-06-19T06:56:00.000-07:00

Farah,Me,Farina
Juian and Me
Umah-TERIYA =)
Me and Lee Wei

Yulis and Ting Ting
Act Cute..LOL!
Jia qing,Chun Wei,Me,Killer,Weynn
After Performance
Hot chicks from Kedah and Penang(no offense ya Yulis n Ting Ting) =)

Packing for Jungle trekking
goin to dinner instead of bath =)
My Jurulatih,Cikgu Mus
Chor-tai-ti-ing after physical workout
Buddies in NS =)

Yes!..I'm back in Penang at last..After 3 months of tough physical training and suffering,i'm done with my NS stint..Well,there's much to post here..I mean the photos that i've taken there..Lots of happenings and unexpected incidents took place there..Lol..Once in a lifetime experience i can say..I'll let the photos do the talkings to you guys bout my experience there..Enjoy! =)

P.S. Form 6 life sucks,no more freedom..

Result!

2008-03-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

Well,i woke up early this morning..Cause its time to get my SPM result..Kinda nervous and of cause,scared to the max..Went to jelutong to have breakfast with my parent..During our journey there,my parent were talking so much bout my result..And damn,that make me tekan like hell..After finishing,we went straight to my school..Met kuok,kuan ming,and the rest of the gang all..They told me the result will only be out at 11.30am..Crap!..Other schools had already given out their result..Ying tian called me and she got 10As and 1B..Jiayan scored all As and she should be the top scorer in her school la,i think..Then,the teachers walked into the hall..A 5 minutes speech was given by the stupid headmaster..Bla bla bla..And the time came,i walked to my teacher..Got my result..FCUK UP!..2As only..WTF! man..Damn disappointing..Went back home after that..And saw someone,that is ultimately important to me..She came down from her car and walked into my school to look for her bf(which used to be my friend last time)..I pretended not to see her..Really a unlucky day for me..

P.S. Dont trust your friend too much cause he/she might do something u never expected.

My first time blogging

2008-03-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

Well,its my first time bloggin here..haha..Nothing much to say for now as its late though..
Will update my blog asap..Wish to meet u guys out there..Haha..Adios! =D